I did it thrice last night

The first time at 2: 29 when

I thought it was

Close to 5 a.m. because

I looked out

the window, and it was dark.

But I checked my

Phone and it wasn't yet time

To get out

Of bed and wake up

Poonam.

Then at 3: 23 a.m. when I

immediately reached

out for my phone but

it still wasn't late

enough for the first

smoke and cup of tea.

Then at 6: 00 a.m. but it still

wasn't time to say

“Poonam uth ja,

der ho jayegi.”

At 6: 50, not being able to

be on my own anymore

I called out

to her and said,

“Poonam uth ja,

7 baj gaye.”

She puts her cold hands

around me on

anxious mornings

And there is a little

more warmth than

the last 7 hours.

What can

clonezepam do when

There is worry in every

breath

i take travelling into

my body through

the pores on

my skin.